I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.
I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.
We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.
I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.
I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.
I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.
I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.
We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.
I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.
I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.
I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.
I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.
I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.
I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.
I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.
I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

100 Years of Solitude is still skeeving me out! IDK. But this book is haunting me; it was referenced yesterday about books that you SHOULD NOT IGNORE and that made me want to crack it open again and I got through another hundred pages and then another weird sexual thing with children happened:
( maybe someone on the list is reading 100 years of Solitude and they don't want to be spoiled, but if you are, you should talk to me about the book! )

I've got so many posts ideas in my head about Fandom. Most of them are spurred by the recent happenings in bandom, but with all of this going on around me, I've started thinking about what I love and get out of Fandom as a whole, and how has it changed for me. So expect some posts later on that.

New Panic! clip puts me firmly of TEAM WANTS NEW MUSIC and I still have room for whatever Ryan and Jon churn out!

I've always liked both AFYCSO and PO so if they are both going to try these divergent sounds, then that just means more music for me. There is some dispute of who penned the lyrics and even if Pete had a hand in this, I am not mad; I'd prefer them develop their lyrical style while leading with the strongest possible for any leaks.

This made my day and I'm just really pleased with it. I do understand if you just preferred PO style to AFYCSO, then you may not like this clip as much.

patd ripped it to mp3, so if you want it, go there and download, I guess.

Currently watching SYTCD but I'm trying to do this thing where I post more often. I think I just missed you guys doing the forced hiatus (thank you technical woes!).

This is an interesting post where people recount their fannish histories. I really enjoy seeing where others come from and how they found themselves in bandom. Hooray to seeing past anime fandoms! Digimon, represent!

Maybe we all need some hurt/comfort at the moment? These prompts have me very excited and I am definitely following the comm. I'm not signing up because things are still volatile at home and I don't want a repeat of bandombigbang, plus, I have other ideas floating around in my head. But I am totally encouraging you guys to look at it and maybe sign up if you're feeling ready. If not patd,  fob, tai, empires, mcr, are still kicking! Maybe I should go leave some prompts? Empires!!!

Hurt/Comfort fic used to be a big draw for me when I was first getting into fandom. Hello, Digimon fandom: how many times did I read about Yamato or Tai being depressed? I still love hurt/comfort but I never realize it as a whole separate thing, maybe because I usually chase certain characters than I do types of stories.

Not bandom related but still awesome: Star Trek Reel AU Challenge! I am very excited for this. I did love the movie and the fandom is amazing, so go check it out!

bandgirlsbang  is still going on! It's too late to sign up for stories, but I think you can still sign up for mixing and art. I am still mixing and I get to pick on the 12th! Come mix with me! or make art! Or just watch the comm for some great stories, if that's your thing.

Currently I'm going through my book collection to weed out things I can get rid of, it pains me, but I know there are some books I am not going to read again or didn't love enough to actually keep around. I am trying to go through the ones I haven't read just in case I find any hidden gems. So far the pile of things to get rid of includes: all Robert Jordan Wheel of Time past book 6, Flowers in the Attic and sequels, some romance book I bought under a deluded hope to find some porn (the internet has spoiled me.), the parody of Grapes of Wrath? The Grapes of Paradise, Snow White Blood Red, the supposed adult retelling of fairy tales and the 158 pound Marriage which has several things guaranteed to pull me out of a book: a main character I can't stand and dumb actions from almost everyone. FFM is a big fan of Irving so I read it on his rec.

Speaking of recs from FFM: 100 Years of Solitude He loves it and swears it is one of the best books he has ever read--and he is well read so it's not like it is the best out of 20 books or something like that. But right now, I'm not loving it. I don't know if it is partly because I'm not really into reading that kind of book right now--sort of fairy tale like with the mysticism; but I am past 100 pages and I don't really like any of the main cast (really, right now my favorite character is a minor character introduced like 20 pages ago!). This book sort of meanders for me but it did pick up with the war starting so maybe I'm just kind of blood thirsty at the moment?
( slight discussion with a tinge of heat about something that peeves me in this book//contains some spoilers of the novel, so avoid if you don't want to know! )

In other news: I was driving and IWSNT came up and I couldn't listen to it. Yeah, this is going to be a process.
Also, I picked up Maus I & II and Persepolis so I do have an alternative to the other books I'm reading.

LJ ate the first post, but here it is again!

After a day of processing this, I just need to make this post and let the rest fade to what it will.

( say it in your mind until you know the words are right )

Not as funny as the Wolverine one to me, but still very good. Kirk + Ledges 4EVAR

Today has been kind of a waste in the I-did-nothing-outwardly-productive way, but what can you do?

Okay, I feel conflicted. Suarez posted on twitter about being voted as sexiest male vegetarian for PETA, so I go check it out, fully prepared to vote for the dapper bassist but then I look at the list and I see Frank Iero, Gabe Saporta, ,and Nick Zinner! Last year I voted for Frank because it's Frank and I find him unbelievably hot; him looking like the live action version of Mario didn't hurt eiter (what! it was my favorite game). Also there is Nick Zinner, moody guitarist of my heart. How much attitude would you have to put out for Drowned In Sound to say 'X, said moodily? So I still have the window open, waiting to vote.

Greta is up for female vegetarian, and I didn't even know she was, so hooray to more information!

In other news:

And yes, it rattles you down to your bones, but that's something you're just going to have to work out. One man is not enough to throw your entire world out of its steady orbit, though he might just bring the nation to its knees.

Isn't that line just gorgeous? What, another sample? ok.

He says, I don't want to hurt you but I need for this to hurt, and you shiver, because yes, that's it, that's precisely it. You remember best the things that hurt you, above and beyond that which makes you happy and makes you smile; it's easy to tarnish perfect happy memories, but indestructible are the ones that are hard and clear and so painfully vivid as to be completely incapable of distortion.

You know those stories that make you just want to pause and absorb it? Make you have to create a new tag to convey how much you enjoyed it? This is one of those for me.

We won't talk about how I got sucked into American Idol RPF, ok. I had to join a comm!

 I just went and bought my tickets for a Friday Showing of Star Trek and I am so excited for it. This makes me even more excited; and the funny thing is that I'm not even a Star Trek fan, my dad is, but I usually just whined about missing my Animaniacs when he would watch Enterprise adn other shows. Anyone else going to see the movie?

This news makes me very excited and happy; I may even have to get HBO to watch the A Game of Thrones. 

Deadpool Spinoff? I would watch it. Even if the supposed third alternate ending was a fake-wish, it's not like this series has been so dedicated to continuity and comic books canon to make sure the films stay true to the source. I found Ryan Reynolds to be good enough in the role, so I'm there. 

Wolverine in Japan? Ok. I'm not opposed to it but I would need other X-men to make an appearance. IDK.

This review of the Yeah Yeah Yeahs make me even more sad they aren't coming to Florida, but it did give me a new line: Rob Your Grandmother for those tickets. Which I will now use as a rating system for future events: movies, concerts, etc.

Ex: Hold up your mother for Gaslight Anthem Tickets...then buy her the CD so she can understand your actions ;)

So Sunday Night. Gaslight Anthem. Yes, it did take me two days to calm down enough to express a level of coherency beyond the required keysmash of glee (dsllkjsfkj!!!!)

The Rundown:
( I-4 and I are cool )

Getting There is only Half the Battle:
( where I provide proof of my need of Mapquest in my life )

At the Social: In the Line, Opening Acts

( what happened before the main event )

Gaslight Anthem: What I came for... (double entendre intended)

( Where being almost kicked in the face means it was SUPER )

Randomness on a Sunday Night:

( Random Notes about the night )

Gaslight Anthem was AWESOME lat night; recap later! Seriously guys, I'm still smiling when I think about it.

But I need to close out some of these tabs so here are some links that I found to be interesting:

Oh snap! Swine Flu just got SRS.

The pic with the bike riding made me think of The Dreamers.

Reason # 1290 why I need to move out of Florida! Yeah Yeah Yeahs, why no love?

Funny critique of Wolverine :) I do want to post something about this later with more depth but right now, I'm super tired and drained.

Today feels like a Sunday but it is definitely NOT /o\

Let's see how this goes!

(Allow me to catch a breath)

Obviously I did not die on the road today (I-275 you fail again!) but I did end up getting on the wrong exit and having to go on a bridge :(

The summaries for bandombigbang posted today and there are not enough words to express my glee! Close to 170 stories!!! A good number of bands are represented too so tons of variety. So go look and get excited with me! I'm not sure if I'm going to read them all but I do want to try out some different kinds of stories than I usually read. Normally I get scared away because of the length but there are some super cool premises with band-people that I'm not used to reading that I definitely want to have  go at.

Yes my standard comfort fic (Jon/Spencer with a touch of schmoop, angst, and AWWW is present..and I did sign up to mix for it because I am so predictable!) but I am planning to double up because I have so much music and I love making mixes!!! Also I don't want any story not to have a mix...

I did end up submitting by BBB so hopefully that comes out okay; I'm taking a breather from it until Monday or maybe Sunday night to give my mind a rest and then I'm back on it to do the final edit, add some scenes and get it beta'd.

I am wishfulclicking on dreamwidth too, so yeah, if you have one add me ;)